"Its good to see that smile on your face everyday"

I hard that at work last week. It made me think, I really had stopped smiling and having fun at work. I used to love my job. I used to think it was the best job in the world for someone who was going to become a nurse. Money wise I wanted the job that I now have, but I did love the job on the unit.

I worked my ass off (not literally, obviously lol) at the Unit Secretary position. I put orders in that doctors wrote, I worked 12 hour shifts, I helped patients when I needed to, I worked every time my boss called me and for a month total over the last 2 years I worked 6 days a week doing the 12 hour shifts. I didn't get a lot of appreciation by co-workers. Some told me they appreciated the job I did, others didn't. Others treated me like I was "just a secretary", then when I had a day off, they would complain because they had to do everything themselves. I became VERY unhappy. I would wake up dreading going in, I would get to the hospital and wish I would get sent home early, I counted down the hours to 7pm everyday. I just began to hate it all. I only stayed because I loved my boss and I was waiting for a co-worker in a different department to take an internship so I could switch positions. That time came. The Co-worker finally left. I was finally able to get that job.

Now I am smiling everyday, I am happy, I LOVE my new job. I know I keep talking about it, but I am just so excited. I knew I was unhappy before, I just never realized how unhappy I was. Not until I heard "Its good to See that smile on your face everyday. You stopped smiling when you were here." So to the woman that said that to me, THANK YOU!!! You made me realize just how deep I had let that unhappiness get.

OH, I had date night last night with K. We went to see Satyricon. A friend of mine is in the play. It is a hilarious one set in Roman times. LOVED it. I got to wear my new dress and my "sexy" shoes. :) It was nice to get out and have fun and not worry about being Mommy. :) K also got me flowers last week. They were my favorite: Gerbera daisies and Lillies. BEAUTIFUL and yellow. Happy, cheerful, fragrant, yellow. GORGEOUS. Thank you Babe!!!

New topic!!

I had another Dietitian appointment for my 2nd of 3 medical weight management appointments. It went okay. I missed a goal or two, but I hit others. She made me feel okay about the things I need to work on for the last appointment.

I go back on the 25th of August for my psych eval, 6-hour nutrition/psych wellness class, final dietitian appointment, and another appointment with the doctor. Then after that, everything is submitted to insurance for approval. I am one BIG  day away from everything going to insurance. HOLY CRAP!!! I am scared, nervous, excited, ready, not ready....I am feeling every emotion. I never ever thought I would be where I am today. I never thought I would weigh this much. I never thought I would be having WLS (weight loss surgery). I never thought I would have to put my family through this. I never thought I would be so excited to end all of that.....

I am happier than I have been in a long time and it feels amazing. I cant wait to be this happy all of the time :)

To my friends that have supported me and told me all the things I needed to hear, good or bad, thank you. I have amazing people in my life. I love you all :)

Sunday

The first week at work went well. Well, as well as it could go considering we have a ton of open positions and the staff that we do have are over worked and wont come in even for a nice big bonus. BUT, I got to see the pretty and pretty ugly sides of the big bosses. The real test will be when I go in tomorrow morning and have to get the payroll done for 3 different departments, bonuses approved, invoices approved for payment all by 10am. Did I mention I have my facility's version of a board meeting at 8:30 to get ready for also? LOL Monday will def be the first super stressful day. No biggie though, I got this! I love the people I work with, which are the same people I worked with before just in a different capacity now. I miss the people I worked with before. I don't think they realized how little they are actually going to see me. My feelings were really hurt when I only had one person tell me they were going to miss me when I am not on the unit anymore. I know they thought it wasn't a big deal since I am moving down the hall. I know that they thought they would still see me all the time. The only time I see them is when I have a reason to be in my boss's office, which is rare since she comes to mine all the time. I have talked to 3 people from my unit since my move. 1 is my best friend, the other is a really good friend and the 3rd hasn't been a work in a while so its the exact same with her. It leaves me wondering if I am going to grow apart from the friends I had. I hope not.

One thing I have learned, I SUCK at sticking to a 1800 ADA diet. Ugh. That is one of my goals for the RD I am seeing before my surgery. I haven't walked the dogs either. I have mini goals I am doing well with, eating more protein at breakfast, getting more dairy in (even though it has been 2% milk instead of skim), eating more veggies....all those are a little better. The actual diabetic diet is the one that is hard. I'm not diabetic and it isn't mandatory to lose weight before my surgery, so having the motivation to do it is hard. On the other hand, I feel like if I cant stick to that diet, how am I going to succeed after my surgery? I have been struggling with that all week.

This weekend off has been AMAZING. I did some PTA things yesterday, then went shopping for office clothes since my scrubs aren't appropriate anymore. After that I went shoe shopping (YAY!!!!) and met my family for dinner in Denton. I haven't had a normal weekend in over 2 years. I have missed this!! C absolutely loves me being home and spending the time with me, and K seems to feel the same way though he has been glued to the new phone he got LOL The dogs don't care as long as they get fed, but I know they missed Mommy time too. I can tell by how they curled up in my bed last night!

Oh! I never told you how Austin went!! I went down there for a State PTA Seminar. That part was just as you would expect, full of classes. I got to know my PTA board much better though. We are def not the stuffy old Moms you think of when you hear "PTA Mom". We are fun, outgoing, and we like to have a good time!! On Friday night, we went out to dinner and just walked up and down 6th street to get a feel for what it was like. I LOVED it. I am absolutely in LOVE with Austin. On Saturday after our classes, we went to dinner and off to 6th Street to have some fun. It was a blast. We got free drinks at the first bar (thanks to me LOL). We had to go down an alley to get there though. That was a little creepy. When we left we went out the back door, turns out it was the front door HA. We went in the bar from the back. I felt like a dumb ass, but I had fun so whatever. I couldn't get into 1 bar because all I had on me was my expired license, I lost my good one. Other than that, it was amazing. My legs and feet were tired from all the walking. I am a moron and didn't bring tennis shoes, only flip flops and flats. Lesson learned there. But K and I will def be taking a kid free weekend there soon. It is so laid back. You had every kid of person out there on 2 blocks of blocked off 6th street and no one got in a fight, no one cared....and everyone was smoking weed. I wont lie, I LOVE the smell of it. And if I wouldn't lose my job (and if it were legal) I would do it myself. LOL I would love to love there for a while. I would miss my family and friends here, but holy crap Austin is so laid back its unreal. I want to go for the biker rally there. My Dad has been a few times and it would be awesome to see that. :) 

Hope you all had  as great of a weekend as I did. This week I am going to stick to the diet better. I am going to prove to myself that I can do it now so that I can have confidence that I will be able to do it after the surgery. :)

Here are some pics from this last week: PTA me, Post-6th street me, my furry babies, C, and C and K having their staring contest lol

First day at new job!!

So many cool things happened today.....my favorite is that IT changed the name on my phone from the previous person's name to mine. Now when I call people in-house or they call me, it shows my name!! Awesome!!!!! Oh, and did I mention I have my own desk in an office with my own bulletin board? WELL I DO!!!

It was a pretty good day. Tomorrow I will be training with someone else, but it will be good to see how someone else does it and work out my own way. I am so excited!! this was the best Monday I have had in a long time!!!

Hope you all have a great week!!!

July 4th

I almost forgot!!!! I had an amazing 4th of July weekend! Hope you all did too!!! Here are a few pics from mine, hope you enjoy....and I hope you had a great one as well!!!!

Diet

I had my appointment with the RD. I am going to try to follow the 1800 ADA diet. It wont be perfect, because I'm not actually diabetic, but I am tweaking what I eat now to meet those standards more. I have realized that doing it is harder than it looks lol. I can stay away from sweet and ice cream, but its the rest that gets confusing. Starches vs fats vs fruits and veggies....how many you get per day and at each meal. I will be doing lots of learning until my surgery!!

The rest of life is going well. I start my new job Monday. Not so much a new job...same place, just different department, more pay and more responsibility. I will be staffing Coordinator. WOO HOO!!!! I have wanted this job for over a year and it finally happened! Cant wait!!

I leave for Austin tomorrow. PTA Summer Leadership Seminar. Going to learn lots of ways to benefit the kiddos for next year. I am pretty excited. I have never been to Austin so I will be sight seeing after I get done with the seminars each day. I know my husband will want lots of pics since he is a retarded huge UT fan. A fault I have battled dealing with. LMAO

Happy weekend!!!