The First Thanksgiving

I bet you thought this would be all about the first Thanksgiving....you were wrong. Its about work, me, weight, C, K, Madre, P, J.......lots of things. And the first Thanksgiving of this year. First of three. LOL

So work.....we went to a tobacco free campus. That doesn't mean anything for me since I quit smoking a while back, but it means something for my co-worker, S. S is the one at work that did as much of the liquid diet as I would let her. LOL She has been a HUGE supporter for me and she has been an amazing person to get to know. I know that cutting back/quitting smoking is going to be hard for her. I have been there. I have quit smoking and I have had to quit food. Two very hard addictions. I know she can do it, but I also know she has a high stress job. Instead of smoking we are walking. We walk around "the block" at the hospital. We didn't walk a lot, but we walked enough to make me feel like I was getting a little bit of exercise in, and I hope enough to curb her craving for the tobacco. S, I will do anything I can to help you!! YOU CAN DO IT!!! I sent her this today, I thought it was hilarious and it reminded me of her:

I took measurements on the 19th. I meant to do it on the 17th, the one month anniversary of my surgery, but that didn't happen. the last time we measured, it was the first day of my liquid diet. It is amazing how much I have lost. I am not ready to post my measurements yet. I will soon, but emotionally I am not there yet. I will say that in my arms I lost a half inch, in my bust I have lost 3 inches, in my waist I have lost 8.5 inches, in my hips I have lost 6.5 inches, in my thighs, 5 inches and total weight loss has been 47.8 lbs. :) Not too shabby. The starting weight was on Oct 1st...that means in 6 1/2 weeks I have lost 47.8. That is 7.4 lbs a week. Wow. My family's first Thanksgiving was this weekend and I had no pants....or so I thought. I ended up wearing some that I haven't worn in over a year. :)

C got her haircut on Saturday morning. That was hard to see when she got home. She came in the house and looked like she was 9 years old instead of a 6 year old 1st grader. : \  BUT she does look so freaking cute.

P came over Friday and cleaned (and rearranged) my house to get ready for Saturday. I am SO SO SO grateful for her and to her. I just didn't have the energy or time to do it. She did awesome. Sasha showed her appreciation by mauling P so that she could get her ears scratched LOL

P and I did the EA Sports Active that I blogged about before. We did one of the stretching videos. It was great. She did better than I did, I think. I played 11 rounds of Just Dance with the kids and Madre and Even my cousins boyfriend, R played a few rounds of it. LOL I danced my butt off. I am sore today. :) That feels good. It felt even better to know that I lasted longer than I used to. Usually after 2 short version songs I was breathing hard. Every song we did this time was the full version. It felt great!!! We also did Karaoke....Madre and I sang Bohemian Rhapsody. BAHAHAHA K got video of that...thanks douche. I must say, it was amazing footage.

My goals for this week are to work out 4 times. I signed up for a 9 week challenge on my EA Sports Active. It has me scheduled to work out Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday. Another goal is to get all of my vitamins in everyday this week. I haven't been getting in my Vit C very often. I want to stay as healthy as possible. I was also going to get my haircut today. That didnt happen either. I will do that this week for sure. shoulder length. Changes. I am full of them.

Changes aren't always fun. I feel like I am losing a few good friends. When they are right in front of you, you tend to take them for granted. When they move away it is harder to keep in touch and talk. Relationships change even when you don't mean for them to. I have 4 people in my life that are not related to me that I turn to when I am having a hard time. One of them recently moved in with her boyfriend in East Texas. She probably wont be coming home anytime soon. I have been down to see her once, and could def go again, its just different. I miss her so much though. Another friend moved to Kansas a while back. We don't talk much, then he went to Alaska. That has made it even harder to talk. Now he is saying he is done with Texas and even thinking about England.....my 3rd go to friend is thinking about moving to Austin. (If this gets super short and scattered its because this is emotion to talk about and I am already tearing up) He has been an amazing friend to me for so long. He and I have known each other since HS. We made a connection back then. Once I met K, R (my friend) and I lost touch. I saw him once while I was pregnant....I kinda puked all over the bathroom and made an amazing impression on him. But then we didn't talk again for a long time. Facebook brought us back in touch. It seems like we have been friends the whole time though. I always wondered how he was doing, what he was up to.....he is so funny. Anyways, he told me he is thinking about moving to Austin. That one def made me cry when he told me. My 4th friend is still here, we work together, and talk on a fairly regular basis. She has been amazing. It is just so hard to handle all of these people leaving and potentially leaving my life. I don't know what I will do when they are all 3 gone. I guess it is all apart of this emotional learning process and learning to not eat my emotions....ugh. It fucking sucks. sorry if you don't like that language, but it is true.

Now I am going to go to bed because I haven't figured out how else to deal with my emotions.

Fod, Ogres, Gorillas and Elephants

Well, I am consistently sucking on updating my blog LOL. It seems like I am posting once a week or once every 2 weeks. I just tend to run out of time to post all the time....not time, energy. I am on the lazy train every chance I get. My goal for this week is to Walk/Work Out no less than 3x. Starting today. I told C after breakfast we would work out on the Wii. She loves to exercise. I just dont want to make myself puke LOL. SO at 9:45 this morning, C and I are going to exercise. Maybe not on the Wii though. The dogs are hella hyper today...we should take them for a walk. :) I saw a great idea on another blog (Busting My Bunz here on Blogger) where they went hiking at Turner Falls. That would be so much fun!!! I def want to do that soon.

My first week back at work went well. I came back on Payroll Monday so of course it was busy as hell. Busy just means it goes faster, right? My week flew by. There were a couple of days that seemed to creep by no matter how busy I was but that only lasted a couple of hours then it was right back to flying by. I packed my lunch everyday. I only went to the cafeteria to get an egg beater and Water. In the gift shop I bought one pack of sugar free gum. I am very proud of myself. As a reward, I went and bought 2 plants for my new office. It is so plain and no real color, so I got these:

I did make one mistake this last week. K cooked chicken and it was DELICIOUS. I was a moron and scarfed 3 big bites down....then my stomach pushed 3 big bites back up. It sucked. My tummy was sore all through the next day. It was a big lesson learned. Eat slow, chew a lot, stop when you are full. I have never done that before. I suppose its all new territory when you have a surgery like this.

Last night we went to see Shrek the Halls made out of Ice. It was awesome. Then we went to Rainforrest Cafe. We all had a blast. We went from freezing to eating. LOL I had amazing rotisserie chicken from the kids menu. It was absolutely delicious. I ate less than a quarter of it and I was full LOL. But C and K chowed down and loved every bite of it as well :) C fell asleep on the way home. I guess that means she had a good time ;)

I don't think I could have made it though all of this if it weren't for good friends and family. I love all of you. You get me out of the house when I feel like this:

and make me feel a little less insane and more like this:

So thank you friends. Thank you family. Thank you readers. You have been behind me 100% and I love you for it. :)

Had A Great Day...

Yesterday was a hectic but good day for the most part. It was the First Annual Carnival and Fish Fry at C's school. Of course Thursday night and yesterday morning I was at Miss J's house cooking popcorn and making cotton candy for the carnival. Well, I started with cotton candy but quickly gave up that job and let Miss J do it. I stuck to popcorn. The NSV (non-scale victory) there was that I wasn't even tempted to try any of the food being prepared. :) That was huge for me. This is just one round of popcorn. We popped somewhere around 200 bags before the event. I am so tired of the smell its unreal. Poor Miss J that has a house full of the smell :(

I saw Dr. P and the Dietitian yesterday. They both said that my 40 lbs lost was amazing and they want me to keep up the good work. I can start working out for real now, just start slow. I can also start to eat soft, high protein solids. :) That was great news on Fish Fry day. LOL All I had to do was make it through the event then I could eat my slice of lunch meat. I chose Rotisserie Chicken as my first solid food in 5 weeks. It was heavenly. It also filled me up LOL. No judging on the pic, I had been working for 2 days on this event, running to the doc and I was EXHAUSTED.

This morning I was able to eat one serving of Egg Beaters with a little cheese. It was also heavenly. LOL I had cooked 2 servings not realizing it was 2 servings. I ate half of it and K ate the other half for me. :) For lunch this afternoon I was able to eat 1 1/2 pieces of lunch meat. And can I just say that I love Hillshire Farms ultra thin meats? They are going to be my staple food for a while. I will post a pic of my 2 favorite flavors :)

K got me the EA Sports Active and Active 2. I am pretty excited about that. It keeps track of your heart rate, calories burned, you can customize workouts and everything. If you use it let me know, I will create a workout group so we can compare notes. I am so excited about this product. I cannot wait to try it.

Now all I have to do today is to go buy my vitamins that I start taking tomorrow. :) Things are moving right along for me. I could not be more excited!!!

Woe is me....

Sorry guys, almost this entire blog will be all about my shitty day....but I will start with good news and warn you before it gets ugly.

I wasn't going to weigh until my doctors appointment tomorrow. I really wanted to wait and see how much I had lost. BUT my Madre called me this morning to find out how much I had lost and talk about some other things. I explained why I didnt want to weigh yet.....I had gained water when I increased my water intake, I didnt want my scale to be way off from the doctor's scale, I was nervous....lots of reasons. She told me I had way more will power than she does. Well let me tell you, if you got 5 weeks with Clear Liquids and 3 protein shakes a day that will give you more will power than you can imagine. I prolly have more than most at this point LOL. But I gave in BAHAHAHAHA I got on that pesky scale. When I did, the number was 41.2 lbs less than what it was on October 2nd. Thats right, in 5 weeks I am down 41.2 pounds!!!!!!!!! WOO HOO!!! That is more than I ever imagined I would see. Its an insane number. Its Biggest Loser type numbers. I am pretty okay with that :)

Now for the pity party.

So my day started off with lots of pain. Horrible stomach pains. It hurt to move. K had to take C to school because I was in so much pain. Well finally I felt a ton of pressure....you know what happened? I took a dump. TMI? Prolly....but still part of my pity party. My stomach felt much better after that though LOL

A couple hours later, I headed to the doctor to have my INR drawn again. It was still a little high on Tuesday so they had me come in today. The tech drawing my blood usually does a great job. She is in and out. Not today. She didnt use the usual vein because she wanted to "give it a rest". BS, you always get blood from it, just stick me there moron. But she tried to stick a vein that was further under the skin. She missed. Not only did she miss, she dug around for it. Finally I told her to stick the usual vein or I was leaving. What do you know, she nailed that one on the first try. DUH!!

I went to help with some PTA stuff after that. Carnival stuff needed to be painted to I went to help Miss J with that. I really like Miss J. She will tell you when she thinks you are overreacting and she will agree when she agrees. She usually offers the other side of the argument as well, just to make you think. Miss J is always nice, always has a smile on her face...even when she wants to scream YOU ARE A FUCKING MORON. :) I envy those parts about her. I wish I could be that way.

I found out that some people suck at communication. NO, I didnt just find that out. I knew that. I have called these people out on that but they got offended. The very people that love when I call others out on their bullshit get offended when I call them out. I dont like being called out either, but I dont make a big fuss about how offended I am. The funny thing is, I like this person. I think she is great, she just needs to be more organized and COMMUNICATE. Its my pet peeve when people dont communicate well.

Lastly, I got a call from my doctors office saying that I missed my post-op appointment. It was supposed to be at 11:30 today. I thought it was at 11:30 TOMORROW (Friday). They usually call to confirm those appointments but for this one they didnt for some reason. So they wanted to get me in next Thursday. I cant do that because my leave from work is over tomorrow. I have to be at work Monday. I explained that and they said that they could try to fit me in to 1:30 tomorrow : /

Everything seemed to pile up today and I am not happy about it. I just want to sit here and cry. It has been an up and down day. UGH