Liquid Diet

I started my liquid diet today. 17 days until surgery and I started my diet. It consists of sugar free clear liquids adding in 3 protein shakes a day.

Today wasn't too bad. Around lunch my stomach started growling pretty loudly. That was funny. I ended up going to the cafeteria and getting some of the broth from the soup. It broke up the same thing of water and jello all day. I had tried a couple protein shakes today. I couldnt get either of them all the way down. Awful. I am going shopping tomorrow to see if I can find some good ones. I also have a couple friends that have recommended some good ones. I ordered some Bariatric Advantage protein powder. I got banana, strawberry, chocolate. Normally strawberry tastes like Pepto to me but I am going to try it again. The vanilla is a no go. I thought it would be okay. It wasnt. LOL

I am starting to feel hungry again. K just ran to Walmart for me to get jello and popsicles and bullion cubes for broth. I hear the hardest day is the 3rd. I am nervous about that. Right now I feel pretty decent after not eating for almost 24 hours. I am a little tired but I suspect that some of that is because I did not get the protein I needed to. I WILL get better at that.

A little off topic: I am so proud of how far C has come in school already. She is reading so well!!! Last night during the storm she was on my bed, in my gown, reading a book. It was too cute not to share. I love my sweet girl.

Tomorrow is mine and K's 6 year wedding anniversary. We celebrated 7 years together as a couple back in May. :) He send me these beautiful Lillies to work. I will post another pic as soon as they are all uploaded:

Hope everyone has a great weekend. I am sure I will post how I am doing again soon :)

Birthdays and Liquor and Bowling Oh My!

Tomorrow is my sister's birthday. P was born and my existence as the only child, eternal princess, and all around apple of my parents eye......was over. I am told that when she was born, I refused to hold her or touch her or be around her. I cannot imagine a kid reacting that dramatically to a new baby....WAIT!!!! Yeah I can. I am a bit of a drama queen. I can certainly see that happening. That being said, I am SUPER excited that my parents did the "dirty deed" to (as my sister so eloquently put it today) spread their seed. LOL.



I cannot imagine my life without P. So many times I have needed someone to turn to and she was always there. We have been through things together that we could have only made it through, together. Sex, drugs, rock n roll, divorce, babies.....without her, well my life would have been boring as hell. Those of you that know P and I, you know what all of that means...those of you that don't, well, the stories aren't that amazing really. There are just a lot of them.

My favorite memory of P is her wedding night. We partied our asses off. She got married, we did some shots, we had the reception the went cosmic bowling.

Yes, she was in her wedding dress and I was in my MOH dress. LOL that is just how we roll baby!!! That night we drank a lot of liquor and danced a lot of dances....right in the middle of the bowling alley floor. We are just that awesome.

We like to think that "Bitches be hatin' cause they wanna be us". HA. I'm pretty positive its true. After all I am the ABSTER and I taught her everything she knows about being awesome.

You wish you could be this awesome. Oh man, she is going to kill me for posing that pic. It is a prime example of how retardedly great we are. We are as close as any 2 sisters can get. I mean really, how many sisters do you know that can (and I am basing this off of the above pic) share a seat on the short bus then turn around and be 2 of the prettiest girls ever?

I cannot imagine trusting anyone else with my secrets, my family, or my life. I would lie, steal, cheat and kill to protect this girl. We went through tough times getting where we are now, but I wouldn't change any of it for the world.

I love you P, you are an amazing woman. I hope this birthday is as amazing as you deserve for it to be.






Now, I have to go nap and get ready for Cosmic Bowling, Liquor and lots of fun celebrating P's birthday!!!!! While I am doing that, sit back and enjoy more pictures from over the years :)

Okay, this one isn't of us, its of C and J, our kids. But they resemble us so much...

This is us and our kiddos:

This is us on crazy hat day:

I look like a pretty awesome big sister here LOL

 Okay, so the town we grew up in had a small lice problem. Pretty much every girl got it twice a year. This was one of the times we had it LMAO....have I mentioned that P is going to kill me for posting these?

I had surgery not too long before this pic. I got some of the OR garb and I was practicing being a surgeon. P was an amazing patient.

Christmas pics....ha. 

Our little family. 

Only a month away!!!

Yep, that's right, only a month away from my surgery date. October 17th. Monday.

A lot has happened since the last blog. C started Fall Ball. They had Opening Ceremonies and K was introduced as part of the board for the first time. :) Its fun to watch out little family become so immersed in the community and events. PTA and LEAYSA are lucky to have us ;)

Here is C during the parade and with K before her game:

Here is K and the rest of the Board at Opening Ceremonies:

We have had some BEAUTIFUL weather. We were able to go to Granny's house and swim without dying of a heat stroke. LOL It felt amazing out side. C and J (my nephew) were excited because the pool at Granny's apartments only gets to 3 ft deep so they could go anywhere they wanted. It was a blast playing with them. I love Granny so much. I talked about her in a previous blog....here she is with me and the kids. <3

And Super Sooner had to save the Longhorn Princess:

J came over to spend the night. We had so much fun (of course). The picnic and park was probably the kids' favorite part. They LOVE being outside. It was hard to bring them back in. I cannot begin to express how much I live these 2 kids. They are my entire world. I love J so freaking much. I know he doesn't come to my house as much as C goes to his, but I do love him oh so much!!

Memaw had her 70th birthday party. It was a surprise party. I know, some of you are wondering why in the hell we would want to surprise a 70 year old woman....we could kill her with excitement. Well, when you see the pic you will understand. She doesn't look her age at all. (Granny doesn't look almost 80 though, does she?) At least I have that to look forward to...people in my family look young when they are geezers. LOL Most of the family came together and Memaw loved it. I will try to post the video of the surprise....all the women cried. We are an emotional family for sure. LOL

That is Memaw with all of the kiddos she raised. My Aunt Marie isn't there, she passed away before I was born, but this is 5 of the 6 children she raised. I only used Marie's name because she is no longer with us. Some people in my family say that she and I look a lot alike :) I like that. Here is the video of Memaw:

My Daddy and I had time to grab a shot of us too...LOL. He isnt a huge fan of pics but he gets over it and puts up with it for me <3

Oh, and who can forget TEXAS FOOTBALL FRIDAY?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? My favorite day of the week!!! #LoboProud

But now to the stuff this blog was made for.....Surgery. In 31 days I will be in the hospital having surgery. Holy crap. That terrifies me. I am excited and happy, but there are so many unknowns. What will I look like? How will I act? How will K react? How will C react? Will my family be able to handle the "new me"? Will I be able to? What will I wear? Will I have a ton of flabby skin? Will I be able to push through the workouts and survive?

So many questions. I truly hope all of my friends stick by me. I do love them all. I have my GI appointment Monday. I will schedule my EGD for Wednesday. I hope Wednesday. It would be the perfect day. My boss would already be in my office and I wouldn't have to super plan for anything. Luckily since my insurance is through the hospital I work for, I get a discount on procedures done in my or sister hospitals. All of this will be done at our sister hospital. Sometimes the EGD isn't covered by insurance, but since I am an employee and am having it done in one of our facilities, I get it covered. HUGE blessing.

K and I were trying to figure out how we would pay the hundreds of dollars we still owe towards my surgery. Thank Jesus we decided to open a Flex Spending Account this year. It is going to save our butts. We have just enough left over to cover the rest of what we owe the bariatric center and to cover what insurance wont of the EGD. This is many prayers answered for sure.

Oh man, in 14 days I start my liquid diet. HOLY CRAP. In 14 days I will be married for 6 years. I kinda like that the hard work for the new me really begins on our anniversary. We haven't had a smooth road to where we are now. Lord knows that K and I have both made some mistakes, but the hard work is worth the end result. In our marriage and this surgery. They will both be healthier because of the work we put in.

I love you K, with all of my heart. I am so glad you have stood by me through thick and thin. I hope I make you proud after this surgery.

Missing teeth, Granny's house, More crappy emotions

C lost her first tooth today. We have been wiggling it EVERY SINGLE MOMENT we are home. Its been about 2 or 3 weeks and we finally got it out. I don't remember it feeling like that when it came out....lol. Pulling it, I could feel the tooth come out. Blech. It didn't gross me out but it was weird for sure. C complained a little, but never cried. She was stunned when it came out....then Aunt P told C that the Tooth Fairy was going to bring her $100. The Tooth fairy will be pretty generous for the first tooth, $20, but after that, its $1 a tooth. HAHA Yes, I am a sucker. BUT Tooth fairy will be sure to leave a note about Aunt P owing a certain little girl the other $80. That should teach Aunt P to blurt that out.....I hope....HA

C and her new snagglepuss smile.....

C and Gramma and the bloody rag from the gaping hole in her gums...LOL....C LOVES blood.....

And here is the video of it all going down....

It was an exciting day at Granny's lol. Before all the fun pulling teeth happened, a great game of Hide and Seek was going on with J and C. At first the kids were on their own...soon Aunt P and I were doing the "warmer and colder" part with them....before too long we were helping them hide in places the other would never hide. That is when Gramma got in on the fun. She found the perfect hiding place and J became Hide and Seek Champ....

C found him once she was in the kitchen, but it was great watching Gramma lift J up and down to get on the cabinets. The kids thought it was hilarious. Granny just sat back and watched us all have fun. Granny has always been that way....an observer. That's one of the things I love about her. Gramma (my Madre) is a doer. Granny (her Mom) is an observer. We had a great day over there.

I have been all over the place emotion wise today. Happy, sad, scared, full of regret.....you name it and I felt it. I have made lots of goals for myself. Be a better Mommy, Wife, employee, and person in general. I believe I am good at all of the above, but I always have room for improvement. If I can improve one small thing at a time, I am chipping away at my goal. I love broad goals.

The OU game is on now. I gotta go!!!

BOOMER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Music....

I am watching VH1 40 Greatest 1 Hit Wonders of the 90's.....makes me think of how certain songs can put you in certain moods no matter what is going on....



There is one song that always makes me sad:

Angel was played at a friends funeral, and I truly believe that I never got over that. I still talk about it a few times a year. It had a huge impact on me. It makes me reflect on fun time with more than just Andrea. LOL, I called her Spiderman and she called me Cat Woman. We were on the Middle School version of Varsity Volleyball. For a long time after she died, I would dress for practice but as soon as I stepped on the court to run laps and set balls, I would just sob to the point where my coaches would kick me out of practice. I just never got over it. She died in such a sad way.....such a sad, sad, way. It makes me think of Andrea, Chris, and most recently Jeremy. I still miss them all.

One song that makes me think of the fun times in middle school:

I thought I was a badass. I hung out with people that thought they were badasses. This is pretty much what I listened to all of the time. LOL I look back and go "WTF was I thinking?!?!?!" I was thinking I was hard....ha.

A song that will always make me think feel like jumping in the car for a road trip:

Every time my mom and sister and I would get into the car and drive, we played this song. Well, this song and the next one. But this was mu favorite. We would sing this and forget all of our problems or squabbles and for 2 minutes and 30 seconds, we were all best friends. :) The next one was just as much fun:

Good times...lol

A song that will always make me stop and think about what I am doing, why I am doing it....and what impact my life has on others....what impact my actions have on me.....

And the most important song of my life.....this one is hard. This one reminds me of my Granny. She is one of the MOST important people in my life. I would kill for this woman. I cannot imagine what my life will be like without her. She never judged me, she never asked what I was thinking, she just supported, counseled, loved and taught me about life. She paid for tickets that I didnt want my parents to hear about...LOL, she is my world.

There are hundreds more....all genres....punk to rock to hip hop. I have hundreds of songs that make me feel hundreds of emotion....All of these songs have me thinking I should make a hospital playlist. It will help me get through all of my emotions I think.....I should start that now. So many songs to add....

Feel free to tell me your songs that mean the most to you. :)